Dear Father,
I know you may not understand why I am doing this, but know that it was the right time for me. I frequent trips to the river and see my shadow…waiting for me. This world has become too much for me to handle, and I’m constantly filled with feelings of disappointment. I know that you do not believe in the love I have for Caddy, or that we were ever more than just brother and sister. You need to know that she is reason I cannot remain in this world. She has torn me apart and left promises broken, just like my heart. She is the reason for my inner turmoil, the very reason I do not wish to be here another day. Grandfather’s watch is a daily reminder that yes indeed time is ticking on, and I feel as if I’m just wasting it continuing my life. Despite the fact you told me to never try to conquer time, time has conquered me. I’m haunted by time, and the ticking of the clock, by the smell of honeysuckle that reminds me of Caddy, and any object I come in contact with triggers a tragic memory. These things are no longer worth living for or rather living through. She has moved on, in fact, I do not believe there was ever anything emotional for her with me.
Father, I love you dearly, and only hope that you will pass this news on to mother gently. Take care of Caddy and Benjy, and never forget me.
Love always,
Your son, Quentin
I like how you included grandpa's watch and the fact that Quentin also has triggers that bring on memories.
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